I dislike words. Not because they're bad, but because i seem to be unable to express joy with them. it never really occurred to me that this is so; i just recently realized i've never written anything out of pure happiness. and now i'm realizing, that is music's domain. it's among my more fluent forms of communication. so i've started listening to orchestrated stuff. and happy stuff. brilliant stuff. then i started trying to make music for band. and i realized, i haven't had the respect for music that i should. what a skill, to be able to put together a score! it takes a level of patience that i quite often lack. hell, i usually lack even the patience to write a song on piano. plus it apparently is much more complex than i ever imagined. so i've decided, wherever i end up going to college, and for whatever, i'll try to take classes in music. hopefully get at least a minor in it. because i want to communicate my joy.